Binge eating...

Since morning, Two plates of shrimp gratin Two Choco Pies One large banana A bag of potato chips A bag of caramel snacks A bag of senbei (4 pieces) ...I ate too much. What should I do, I messed up.. My appetite won't stop. Before I knew it, I was eating, and lately, the numbers have been insane. I eat, regret it, and cry, so why don't I just not eat. When I'm not feeling well, I either starve myself and lose weight drastically, or like now, I binge eat and gain weight drastically. Right now, I'm gaining weight drastically. My clothes won't fit again... I don't even want to look at food... (Even though my stomach feels heavy, I still want to eat, so I'll retreat to the room furthest from the kitchen, but ultimately it's because my willpower is weak, so crying is my own fault.)