我獨自生活

I only get energy from drinking coffee It even gives me the motivation to get things done On holidays, I just want to lie around like a salted fish And avoid caffeine Living alone A holiday spent lounging with my cute kitties Looking out the window, hoping for a clear blue sky today🩵

I don't actually like it that much But I ended up eating 10 Xiao Pan Phoenix Rolls in one go They're the pineapple tarts with salted egg yolk inside. It was my first time trying them So I just had them for dinner. It feels like I'm punishing myself this way. Good kids, don't try this! During a meeting today, my tsundere princess boss and a completely irresponsible boss blamed me after shifting all the responsibility. It really brought my mood down. *sniffle* Tomorrow will be another beautiful day. I can do it! Even though I'm just a small me, I'll bravely face it all by myself! I can only encourage myself (ノДＴ)

I ate a steamed fish bento box Actually, the portion was quite small FamilyMart's chicken salad roll, forgot the name Gummy bears After eating the above, I still felt it wasn't enough Cooked a bowl of Uni-President shrimp noodles Drank two cups of corn soup Then ate two non-sweet South African sweet oranges Well I'm really full now *sob* Today must have been too stressful 😭😭😭

Four consecutive days of insomnia. I'm so brave, dragging my tired body to work and back every day. It's been pouring rain these past few days, and my heart has been soaked with unhappy tears. This week has been pretty rough. Today is Saturday. My best friend is my bed. I still had to watch the cats fight in the morning, but now they've finally gone to sleep. I'm going to continue catching up on sleep. o(￣▽￣)ｄ good

Going to work alone Getting off work alone Grocery shopping alone Making dinner alone Eating alone Am I lonely? Pretty lonely. Eating at restaurants I want to eat at Drinking the alcohol I want to drink Buying the car I like Watching the movies I want to watch Traveling whenever I want to stop, wherever I want to go Am I free? Very free.

Can't finish it all at once. My weird way of eating it is with a hot Americano. Eating a whole tub of ice cream alone Is just too much happiness 😽 Classic vanilla is the best.

Did you know? Truly loving someone means loving them with all your heart, no matter what. It means thinking of them first in everything and agreeing with them, but that doesn't mean I have no opinions or ideas of my own. Six years... back and forth. Is respecting the other person really that hard? Now I even feel disgusted just talking... Fucking trash.

I just suddenly realized it was the day after Qixi Festival! I actually care more about the 7th month of the Lunar calendar and the offerings for Zhongyuan Festival where the company has to prepare food. I wonder if the snacks I bought will taste good. Is there anyone else who forgets holidays as often as I do? It's not necessarily just people who live alone. But I easily remember other people's birthdays, yet very few people remember mine. I wonder if anyone still writes birthday cards these days. I really used to love writing and sending birthday cards to my friends. And they were sent by mail. The feeling of receiving one was really different. Nowadays, for holidays or birthdays, the most I receive are promotional text messages. "Enjoy a discount when you spend this month on your birthday" 😅 Attaching an unrelated JoJo picture. I really love Jotaro + Star Platinum ❤️

Sharing something that happened a few days ago. It might not have much to do with living alone, but I wanted to talk about going for a health check-up by myself. I saw so many couples, friends, and family members there. It just shows that everyone values their health. I bravely challenged the blood draw. Even now, when I get blood drawn, I close my eyes because I can't look at the needle. There must be other brave people like me, right? As usual, I felt dizzy after the blood draw. The nurse kindly asked if I was okay and offered to make me a cup of sugary water. This time, I mainly had women's health-related tests done. Thinking back to my first internal exam, I had a terrifying experience with a male doctor. He didn't do anything unusual, it was just a check-up, but I was so shy back then I wanted to cover my face 🫣. The female doctor this time talked with me a lot and gave me some advice. Turns out there were many things I hadn't paid attention to before. ----- What's a bit sad is I gained 4kg compared to last year 🐷. I grew 0.2cm taller. My cholesterol is high, and there's a family history of heart disease, so the doctor recommended further tests. In conclusion, Health is my most important asset 💚

I really want the freedom to enjoy a life of my own...