Seeking Advice

No negative comments on seeking advice, please. For some reason, I've been bullied a lot since I was young. Almost everyone in my class bullied me (there was only one class per grade, so it was quite a lot), and being bad-mouthed was an everyday occurrence. The reason they specifically bad-mouthed me was because it was planned for me to get angry from their deliberate taunts (I was young, like 1st grade, and didn't know how to handle it), and then they would report me to the teacher for acting out, making me the bad guy every time. When the teacher said, "Come to the staff room!!", I refused, saying "No!!". Then they said, "Go down the stairs!!", and I refused again, saying "No!!". They then threatened, "Then I'll force you down." I ended up tumbling down the stairs not just sitting down, but with a hard impact that left bruises on my backside... This continued almost every day for about 6 years (I was finally able to transfer in May of my 6th year), and for some reason, I was always made out to be the bad one, always scolded, and I didn't understand what was happening, leading to tears almost every day. I don't get angry anymore, but I can't shake the feeling that the people who bullied me back then are still bad-mouthing me. Please, look at me now. You can tell how much I hated school; even though my parents told me to go, there were days I cried in the morning and begged to stay home.