Going through a rough patch??

I don't know if I'm going through a rough patch, but things have been tough lately 🥲 Even looking at my bias doesn't cheer me up... We have a school concert coming up, and honestly, I don't want to participate. I don't understand the standard of having to go along with people who are messing around. Plus, I'm in the same class as that noisy guy I mentioned in my previous post, and I think my hearing is getting worse because he's so loud... I used to be able to hear even when people spoke from a distance, but now I can't understand what they're saying if they're far away... (It's not bad enough to go to the hospital, though.) Where should I take out this stress on... X (formerly Twitter)? Instagram? TikTok? Even if I vent online, it'll just feel like losing in the end, right? I keep talking about the same things... I don't even know myself, but it's really hard, I don't want to go to school. Lately, our grade has been really chaotic and we keep getting scolded by the teachers. I'm trying my best, so why don't you scold the people who aren't trying hard 🥲 I really hate this... Some might say there are options to escape, but my parents won't let me rest, so I don't have any options to escape... Sorry for the long post.