Sorry

Sorry for being so inadequate. I'm on long-term medical leave, so I can't even do remote work, which means every day is a 'day off' for me 😭 I've been resting a lot, thanks to that. Though my mind isn't at peace 😅 I'm not busy with anything... I get exhausted just moving around a little. At my July check-up, they said I had improved significantly compared to around May, but this month, they said my breathing sounds aren't great again. Even though I didn't feel particularly unwell that day. It's a beautiful, sunny day today, but maybe because of the lingering effects of the nightmares from a few days ago and last night, I'm feeling restless and can't calm down, and it's become difficult again. Just when I was starting to feel better, with this condition, there's no way I can do remote work properly. I'm grateful to Bosuki for meeting me and pulling me back... But how long will this situation last? And how long will they keep chasing me? The afterimages of the past. Didn't they burn out and disappear with me during the time when even despair had burned out? Why are you still here? Why are you showing yourself again now? 😮💨