Lost..

I still remember you confidently saying, 'Grill it for me! You have to eat it~!' when we had Korean BBQ. If I hesitated even a little, you'd get all pouty, which was so funny 😂 (What did you say!! How dare you!? Grill it for me!!) You always gave me those nicknames, they were so annoying but only you had that privilege. I'm sorry... I actually hated making you sad and cry..... And I hated seeing you sick and in pain.. Whenever I think back to that time... (Bringing water, handing over medicine, getting tissues, feeding you) I did my best to take care of you, but I couldn't take away your pain, and I felt so powerless and heartbroken... I can't forget the gentle words you only said to me ☺️ Places we went together, those scenes always remind me of you... A small doll could make you happy and heal you, you with the purest, most beautiful smile~ And the snowflake cookies you shared. I was happy with anything you gave me. I'll cook, my little dummy. You just eat. I love you and I'm afraid of you getting hurt. (Can we switch it up for one meal? As long as I can eat until I'm full?) I can't stand seeing you cry, I can't stand seeing you tired. I worry about everything concerning you... You even worried I wouldn't have enough money and told me to keep it for myself... This sincerity and cherish... ultimately can't exist anymore, can it? I'm afraid I'll never hear from you again.. It wasn't that I got used to you, I loved you completely. I loved you deeply, but I had to force myself to let go, letting my heart ache... You said you'd be right back.. The reluctant image of you leaving for the last time... I can't get over it. I believe you're still the best and kindest girl.