Can't help but laugh

Got trolled twice during Kalon's first rerun. Chose Kalon and El Aleph in the selectable banner. Out of 4 chances, 3 were El Aleph. The remaining one wasn't even the rate-up character. And now, the rate-up select and rerun banner are here at the same time. With high hopes, I threw my gems in, thinking 'This is it!' A 6-star animation appears. 'Surely this time it'll work! It has to! It's not workinggggg!!!!' ...... I lost. I haven't given up yet. There's still a chance until the end of the month. Everyone, I'm going to cry now. Laugh at me.