自語り部屋

There are many offers where you get around 10,000 points for clearing thousands or tens of thousands of stages. However, those games usually have too many ads, so I often end up getting only a few points and quitting, which is a shame.

Sorry for the intrusion right after joining ( . .)" I was outside the other day, and my water bottle ran out of tea. It was super hot, so I started getting dizzy and my vision started to go. My vision got darker, and I thought, 'This is serious,' so I called out to the person I was with, and thankfully, I was okay. It's getting cooler now, but everyone, please be careful too ( * . .)"

⚠️All you crybabies out there, please read this⚠️ I'm a super big crybaby. Like, if a teacher scolds me even a little, I cry immediately. I cry even when I'm not sure if I'm actually being scolded. I cry just hearing scary stories at camp. I cry even if I'm scolded unfairly. That's the kind of person I am. In short, I'm a crybaby. When you're about to cry, it feels like something comes up from your stomach, like 'Uoooooohhh~', right? (Sorry for my lack of vocabulary) If you try to make a sound then, tears start to come out. Or it feels like tears just well up if you keep listening. They come out even if you're not trying to cry. I bet there are people like that! (Well, I'm one of them...) But today, I didn't cry!! That 'Uoooooohhh~' feeling came up from my stomach! It got all the way to the very edge. But then, I remembered what I wrote in my post the other day, "Teachers are amazing...!" – the part about "Because I'm awesome." I thought, 'I got scolded... but I'm awesome, so I'm my own biggest cheerleader.' And then, I stopped crying midway. Did I become able to see things objectively? It's not like I wasn't listening to the teacher. I was able to finish by thinking, 'Ah, I really should have done that.'! Seriously! All you crybabies should try this! Saying "I am awesome!" "I am awesome!"

Today, I suddenly noticed something green and sticky on my hair dryer's cord... I looked it up and it seems to be rust from the copper wires inside the cord! This happened because I kept using it while it was twisted... I'm going to buy a new hair dryer right away!!! I won't use it while it's twisted this time!

I'll be participating ( * . .)" Looking forward to it.

The first company I joined out of college was a tourist hotel, and I can't forget the tako wasabi I had there. It was served at a tasting event for luxurious banquet dishes for customers, and it was incredibly delicious. It's been over 10 years since I quit, but I still can't forget it. I've tried it a few times since then at izakayas and souvenir shops in port towns, hoping to taste it again. But it wasn't the typical salty flavor of bar snacks. It was a more refined tako wasabi that you could enjoy even without alcohol.

I went to consult with my teacher about something yesterday. They like philosophical things just like I do, think similarly to me, think and act a lot, try to be super positive, and are really well-liked by everyone. I ended up telling them about my thoughts, worries, and unpleasant feelings for about an hour. This is what the teacher told me then. "These are the kinds of worries that only someone who thinks a lot can have. People who don't think at all just live carefree lives and never encounter such dilemmas. After all, the person you'll spend the longest time with in your life is yourself. You know yourself best, and you're the one who can praise yourself the most. No matter what anyone says, you can just think to yourself, 'I'm doing this, so I'm better than you.' However, if you let that show in your attitude, it'll earn you backlash, so it's best to keep it in your heart." My memory might be a little fuzzy on the exact wording, and I might have forgotten some parts, but that's the gist of what they said. These words were incredibly comforting. It's hard for people who overthink to praise themselves, but please praise yourself a lot!!

I strayed far from the path most people walk and had my first health check-up at 23. Turns out, I have diabetes. My numbers were apparently quite bad, and they told me to lose some weight, watch my diet, and take medication. Being diagnosed with diabetes at 23 was a shock, and since that day, I've been eating less rice and opting for healthier meals. However, not being able to eat until I'm full has become a source of stress, worsening my pre-existing depression. Memories of not being able to eat enough when I was little keep flooding back, and it's incredibly painful. I'll keep pushing forward today, dreaming of a day when I can eat delicious food to my heart's content 😭 (The cause of my diabetes is eating too much white rice. Apparently, eating 1 'go' per meal was the issue, and I've now reduced it to 0.5 'go'.)

Nice to meet you.

Sorry for rambling again! To explain first, I'm the conductor for our class choir (I'm not that bad, as I was chosen as conductor last year) and the soprano section leader. One day, we were practicing singing. The first half of the practice was supposed to be in the student council room. The sopranos and altos went to the student council room to practice. However, there's this one girl who says something like this every time recently. 'If you just push through, you can do it by feel!' And I kind of agree with that to some extent, so at first, I thought it was fine. But no matter how many times we try, we always get stuck at the same part. So I thought, 'Pushing through isn't going to work.' Let's just do it normally. If we try to match the other parts like this, it'll only get worse, and I wanted to get the notes right. The alto section leader felt the same way. While we were singing, a cockroach appeared. I was sure the girls would freak out, so I told them to look forward, but in the end, one of the boys in the soprano section started screaming, and we couldn't continue practicing. That's when the music teacher came. She tried to get rid of the cockroach, but it disappeared, and then she gave us some guidance on the parts we were struggling with. ↓To be continued