40대 이상

It came because it saw humans as food, but the humans are gathering around happily. Such uncivilized people lol

You'd think I'd be used to it by now, but I'm bored. Guess I'll go work out lol

You know it's a hassle, right? Let's live in the countryside like a grandpa.

It's not like I haven't spent holidays alone before, but lately, I've been feeling particularly lonely and sad. It's been 45 years of standing on my own two feet because of my parents, and it's just sad ㅠ It's literally a holiday for 'them' only. Let's make a movie.

Now, whenever I try to leave a comment, it keeps telling me to join the board. It's becoming more and more bothersome to comment. I hope PlayO can resolve this. It seems like the free board is gone, is it just me?

So damn expensive ㅜ

Chuseok is tomorrow. Are you all enjoying your delicious holiday food? My family decided to just eat out simply, so we don't cook or go anywhere for the holiday. It's convenient and nice, but it doesn't really feel like a holiday. Still, I'm glad I can rest well.

Came out to the Han River for the first time in 4 days. The weather is lousy and I didn't have much time, but I forced myself to take pics and upload them again. I had some photos of Raccoon, but they felt stale so I left them out.

My mother passed away when I was 5, and my father had already moved to Seoul for work. Around the time my mother died, I was staying with my grandparents. I have a memory of going to Seoul with my father for a short while, and I almost died there once. My father was the one who caused it. After that, I continued to live with my grandparents, but my grandfather passed away from cancer. So, at 12 years old, I was taken to Seoul by my father and my stepmother. When I was growing up with my grandparents in the countryside, the rice bowls were huge, but when I came to Seoul, the rice bowls were like the ones you get at restaurants these days. I ate one bowl and wasn't full. When I asked for more, my stepmother said, 'Did a beggar get into your stomach?' After that, even if I wasn't full, I couldn't ask for more. I was at an age where I should be eating a lot, but I started eating 'look-based' meals (meals based on reading the room). Even when I came home from school hungry, I couldn't say anything. The difference between my biological mother and my stepmother was so vast. It was heartbreaking ㅠㅠㅠㅠ I have more to say, but I'll stop here...

I don't know if this is what they call 'holiday syndrome'... Ever since my parents passed away, the meaning of holidays has largely disappeared for me... it's been about 20 years now.. As I get older, I miss them more, wish I could see them, and regret things. But it's already too late.. Every time the holidays approach, I just feel so down... That's how I've been lately... that's how today is.